QUESTION : I was not active in the church for many years. I started back the week after Easter of 2009. In the following months, I became very active in my church and felt very good about what I was doing. One night last summer I woke up in the middle of the night and felt what can only be described as pure love filling the room (I live alone).
Recently, however, I don’t feel it as much or even at all. I still believe and I still work to deepen my faith but I can’t honestly say that I feel the constant presence of God in my life these days. When I pray, I don’t feel like my prayers are being heard let alone answered. I know that God won’t abandon me ever, but recently I have felt like I have been going through life alone and I don’t know why.
ANSWER : God gave you consolations when He determined that you needed them. Now, He wants your fidelity without consolations. Now you show your love for Him because He is that you want and not the consolations. This purifies your love and makes it greater. Just keep your eyes on Him. Mother Teresa went for over twenty years without consolations. It wasn’t easy, but her love for Him grew–and so will yours.
You might want to read a book on this: “Mother Teresa: Come, Be My Light” by Fr. Brian Koldiejchuk, M.C.
Fr. Vincent Serpa, O.P.