“Who Do You Say I Am”

Posted: September 23, 2011 by CatholicJules in Memory Book, Personal Thoughts & Reflections

Jesus tells me that in love it is he who delights me, while in suffering, on the other hand, it is I who give pleasure to him.  Now, to desire good health would mean seeking happiness for myself instead of trying to comfort Jesus.  Yes I love the cross, the cross alone; I love it because I see it always on Jesus shoulders.  By this time Jesus is well aware that my entire life, my whole heart is consecrated to him and to his sufferings.

Ah dear Father, pardon me for using this sort of language; Jesus alone can understand what I suffer when the painful scene of Calvary is enacted before my eyes.  It is equally incomprehensible how Jesus can be consoled not merely by those who sympathise with his torments, but when he finds a soul who for the love of him, asks no consolations and only wants to be allowed to share in his suffering.

When Jesus wants to make me understand that he loves me, he permits to relish the wounds, the thorns, the anguish of his Passion.  When he wants me to rejoice, he fills my heart with that spirit which is all fire and he speaks to me of his delights.  But when he wants to be delighted, he speaks to me of his sufferings, he invites me in a tone which is both a request and a command to offer my body that his sufferings may be alleviated.

Who could resist him? I realise that I have made him suffer exceedingly by my failings, that I have made him weep too much by my ingratitude, that I have offended him too grievously.  I want nobody but Jesus, I desire nothing else (which is Jesus’ own desire) than his sufferings.  Allow me to say it, since no one can hear us, I am ready even to be deprived for ever of the tenderness which Jesus lavishes on me, I am prepared to bear his hiding his beautiful eyes from me as long as he does not hide from his love, for this would cause my death.


Saint Pio of Pietrelcina +1968

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